Well, school has started up once again. I'm onto my 5th semester. Man, I should have been done by now but silly me, I decided to change my major half way through my studies. I was going in for Electrical Engineering but decided to get a degree in Graphic Communication and Webdesigns since that is truly what I enjoy doing. Afterall, I've been doing it for a billion years or so. Besides, you know what they say, "have a career in something you enjoying doing". Now if I can only start up my own business and be really successful at it. God, that would be the dream. Who knows though, it could happen. Some dreams do come true right? (I hope).

Anyhow, here I am sitting at home infront of my laptop with nothing to do. It's just past 10 pm on a Friday night. Ya, I should be out right? Partying with friends and meeting new people. Maybe that's how it should be but the fact is, it's not. Why? For one, I gotta get up early tomorrow morning about 4:30am or so for work. Besides that, I guess it's because I really don't want to go out and do anything. Lately, I've been satisfied with simply staying at home.......sweet, sweet home and working on personal things, projects and homework. Maybe I'm becoming a recluse? A de-socialite? Maybe I'm just tired of dealing with people, with faces.................with the world. Maybe I'm tired of life and just want to be to myself and not think of the outside and all it's troubles? Have you ever got to the point were you just don't care anymore? To the point where almost nothing matters? Nothing have no value? Maybe I'm at that point? Maybe I have come to my cross-roads and just can't decide in which direction I should traverse? I had thought that I had left all my indecisions in the past and was capable of tackling any and all decisions and forks in the road. It seems that once again I am wrong. For hear I am, again, looking at the road to my left, looking at the road to my right, looking at the road ahead. In which direction should I go? I'm scared of the left road for the fact that it is troubled with thorn bushes and dangerous vegatation. I fear the right road because all I see is pot-holes and cracks in the pavement where I might trip and fall. But what about the road ahead of me? Well, I'm scared about that one too because I can't see where it's going and what lies ahead. It's foggy and the fog won't allow me to see that far. But then......I remember a saying; "what you don't know, can't hurt and what you can't see, you can't fear". Powerful words. I have no choice but to take those words and move ahead onto the road infront of me.

You're probably wondering why I am writing such non-sense. Truth be told, more times than not, I write what's on my mind. I've always been the person to speak my mind, to say what I feel and to do what I need to do. And right now, at this moment, as I'm typing these monotonous letters onto my screen over and over, I'm laying down what I'm feeling. The thing is, I really don't know what I'm feeling. I want to say I'm feeling sad, maybe bored, maybe pained, maybe depressed, maybe lonely. I can't put my fingers on it. What I do know, I don't feel like myself. There is something missing within me but I just can't figure it out. I don't feel complete but instead, just a part, a piece, a link. Maybe you, the reader might know, but then, how would you know if I myself don't know. And to contemplate it, makes me weary. And weary is what I am now. I guess I should end this, close this letter. Good night people of the world. I shall depart for the night and think nothing........dream nothing.