So here we are, at the end of February. New Years is over, Valentines day is over, President's day is over. So what's next? To be honest, I could care less. If you ask me, I think this country of ours (US), has far too many holidays. Then again, you didn't ask. So I shall say no more. So here I am, the Dreamer, sitting at my computer (laptop), listening to the soothing instruments of a neatly composed Instrumental......this instrumental.....quiet, placid..... serene. It's music like this that I can listen to over and over and over...... let my mind meld into solitude, blend into the bevy of tones and cords struck from within the piano, within my fortress......... my mind. Ahhhh yes, this...........I like.

Have you ever been tired? No, I mean, "really" tired. No, no...... I don't think you understand. Have you.............. ever been tired of what you see around you, of what you feel, what you taste, what you hear? Have you ever been tired....................... of life? Look around you. Take in what you see, take in what you taste, what you hear........... and tell me how you feel? I bet I know. Sometimes you feel anger. Sometimes you feel sorrow. Sometimes you want to scream or jump for joy or cry a bloody river. Sometimes you want to shout at the top of your lungs and be mad at the whole world! And the biggest word, the most powerful, is the one that you shout or cry out loud..............."WHY?!"
WHY.......... is there prejudice and discrimination?!
WHY.......... is a woman raped, a life damaged?!
WHY.......... is a child sitting in his own filth, crying for sustenance, crying for life?!
WHY.......... do the deeds of the wicked go unpunished while justice swiftly strikes the innocent?!
WHY.......... does man not give a GOD DAMN SHIT about his fellow human?!

I live my life, day to day, hoping that I do no harm, that I cause no sorrow to form, no tears to shed. And every day, as I make sure to try to abide by such simple laws, such simple rules, I still see that which makes me angry, that which makes me feel sorrow, that which makes me weep. And it is then that I want to take this whole world, this God forsaken place and lay waste to it all. But I look down, upon my hands....... and tears flow from out of my eyes........from off my chin......... and it drips softly onto these openned palms. It is then that I realize.....who am I, to do such a thing.... to play God and judge as though I have sinned not!? What power do I have to change this world?! Why should I bother..... for no one else is doing it. No one else is giving a SHIT! It's then that I walk away....defeated with my head hanging low.....in disgust!

Imagine, day to day, seeing this, feeling this....... and walking away. Imagine this routine.... this mundane, pitiful routine day in and day out. There is only so much sorrow one can go through. There is only so much tears one can shed before his eyes run dry. There's only so much pain one can feel before numbness sets in and nothing matters anymore. Then pretty soon, you no longer stop to pity those who need pity...... you no longer look their way. You no longer even pay attention anymore. Instead, you walk on by, never even taking a second glance, oblivious to their existence. We are so caught up in our own lives, in our own problems and headaches and heartaches that we DON'T want anybody elses problems! We say, "Fuck everybody else, i've got my own shit to worry about!!" HOW DO WE GO ON LIVING LIKE THIS AND STILL BE ABLE TO CALL OURSELVES HUMAN BEINGS?!!!!

Then there are those Self-Righteous Bigots! How do you dare cast a stone at me when YOU YOURSELF should be flogged for the same reasons! You ridicule a man and treat him as dirt because of a mistake he might have made in his life?! You destroy a human being because he might be different, or not of the same religion or worse, has a criminal record! Maybe even labeled with a sex crime?! You destroy him and think of him as a ravenous beast because he has "that" kind of a label!? Have you not considered the circumstances of his record?! Should a man who got caught for indecent exposure be treated the same and de-humanized like that of a real "predator", real "molestor"!? WHERE IS THE JUSTICE IN THAT?!!! YOU SELF-RIGHTEOUS WHORE, fall off your high and mighty throne! Who hasn't made a mistake? Where is the forgiveness? Where is the compassion for our fellow human being? People, the American society, are so ignorant of such matters that others scoff at our stupidity!! Are we so living in fear and dread that it's okay to destroy a man's life to near death because he "could" be a molestor?!! Is it okay to destroy his family, his loved ones, his whole livelihood for a mistake he made so many years ago?! We listen to every God Damned bullshit that comes from the mouths of sensationalized "news" that what they say is taken good as gold. Don't you realize they're there for the ratings?! To continue to fan the flames of hatred, fear and destruction of human beings?!! ALL IN THE GOD DAMNED NAME OF "PROTECTING OUR CHILDREN"!!!!! If you want to TRULY protect your child, LEARN THE FACTS, ACKNOWLEDGE THE TRUTHS, DON'T VOTE IDIOTS INTO OFFICE THAT DO NOTHING BUT FEED OFF YOUR FEARS!! Ignorance is NO bliss! It is the suffering of others! If there is a God, may he have mercy on those that burn the cross while recanting the Lords prayer!

So what is the reason why I'm cussing and screaming and yelling like a crazy man? Simple. Because I'm angry at these creatures we call human beings! I'm angry at the pitiful lives we try to lead! I'm angry at the way we treat each other! I'm angry at our hypocrit leaders! I'm angry at our perverted justice. I'm angry at the world leaders who don't give a damn! I'm angry at our politicians that lie and deceive only to be voted into office! I'm angry at the ignorance of our fellow man! I'M ANGRY AT THE WORLD BECAUSE NOBODY GIVES A GOD DAMNED SHIT!!!!!