Hello folks! Here's my first post for the new Random Thoughts section of my site. Today is September 2nd of 2005, time of 8:00 pm on a Friday evening. Why am I not out with friends tonight? Well, for one, I'm heading to Los Angeles tomorrow early in the morn so I wanta make sure I can get up on time. Not only that, but I just wanta relax and do nothing but my own personal projects..now that I have some time to myself; which hasn't been much of lately. So what's on the topic tonight? Well, this time around, I thought I would devote this article to someone very dear to me. No, it's not my mother..may she rest in peace. Not my father...God bless him even though we haven't been on talking terms for over 7 years. It's not my siblings, or uncles or aunts. Infact, it's not a family member at all. Then it must be a girlfriend? No. Remember, I'm still a bachelor. But a girlfriend....is as close a description as you can possibly catagorize this person I suppose.

This individual whom I decide to write about this evening is someone that I met over a year ago...yes, it doesn't seem to be a long time to warrant a "special" article. But as you know, this is my article, my time. And yes, that person is a she. I had mentioned her in another article prior...(several back), and briefly explained who she was. But if you've missed that, It's okay, I'll gladly explain again.

Here name is Cheng..of course, not her real name, simply a screen name. And she's a Yahoo! chatmate whom I've grown quit fond of. As I have mentioned numerous times, I'm not really an Instant Messenger nor do I pass idle time playing around in Yahoo! chatrooms or similar. But...strange and how odd...one day, I decided to hit those chatrooms looking for a fellow Javascript Programmer as to trade codes and ideas. And during that, I accidently discovered a girl screen named, "Dainty Chic". So we got to chatting, trading stories, likes, dislikes and we ended up chatting more often than I would hardly imagine. A short period later, she introduced me to two of her friends, "Shaira Luzana"........and "Cheng". We all ended up chatting to each other more times than not and of course passing many idle times. And at this point, somehow, I began enjoying chatting away on the Yahoo! IM with these three girls.....whom ultimately became known as my Three Angels. I found myself chatting more so with Cheng. How'd that happen? Well, I found her "interesting". At the time, she seemed quite secretive...so nonchalant. So, I wanted to get to know her more. And so began all the wondeful chats between her and I.

Now you're probably thinking, "Oh, he's just a poor loser who doesn't know how to talk with girls in the real world". Actually, it's quite the contrary. Not to brag, or sound like a shovanist pig, but I've had my fare share of girlfriends, dates and serious relationships. And on a side note, I'm quite tired of that at this point....maybe because I'm getting to that age of settling down...or maybe because I'm trying to find some meaning in life through solo adventures. Either way, I'm proud of my standings. Okay, back to the person for whom this article is for.

Again, what makes this person, this "Cheng", so special that it warrants an article devoted to her even though I could be writing about a million, trillion of other things on this Earth? To be matter of fact, it's ALL the little and small things about her. It's all the little two word things she says, all the small innocent inquiries, the small smirks, the small jokes, and even her small Yahoo! smilies like the hug or the batting of the eyes. And all these little things have left me pondering...."What the heck! What happened? Why am I falling over myself from such trivial little things that anyone...any girl would probably do"? Well, I never did find that answer and honestly, I don't care to. All I know is, she somehow got me smiling in more ways than one, and over things so trivial and not so trivial. And wow, she is so breathtakingly beautiful. I mean, "WOW"! A definate model-caliber. And her smile? She could literally stop any man dead in his tracks. I remember the first time I saw that smile, I swore my knees gave out and my legs began to wobble. That's how stunningly beautiful it is. The one thing that really, really gets me smiling is her nicknames for me. Every time I see that, I can't help but get this huge grin on my face. One of them is, "wonderwall". If you could guess, it's from a song. Her personality is the type that one would wish every person in this world would have. I mean, it's contagious! From my experience, and from what I've heard from friends, she seems to somehow exude happiness and positive attitudes and spread it amongst those around her. It's amazing how so many similar things we seem to share too. Everything from music to choice of silly words to foods to intellectual debates. Infact, so similar, that we both hated our old jobs and wished for something better.....and not just wished but went to school for and hit the job market countless times. Then, all of a sudden, as if stuck to each other, we both happen to get a new job nearly at the same time. Wow!

Now here we are, almost a year and half.....wow! Has it really been that long? But then again....at the same time, it seems I've known her for yeeeeeeeeeeears! But this year and half that we've known each other, what has it brought us? Well, for me, it's brought much more joy, much more happiness, more laughter.......and more importantly, this warm and strange feeling growing inside of my chest.....which I've had for quite some time now. And for her? Oh, I'm 100% positive the feelings are mutual and we seem to be growing ever closer as time whispers by. Infact, so close that there has been talks of "being together". Being together.....hmmmmmmm...... Yes, I can handle that. I would love to handle that. I don't think anything in this world would make me happier. Well, if that's the case, then I better quit all my bad habits....like walking around the house butt-naked.....hehehe!

So what can I say in closing about this person whom I've grown so fond of? There are times or moments where mere words cannot explain or justify or even describe an individual. This.......is that moment. There is not a single word that can describe how wonderful and complex and breathtaking, and exhilarating this person is....how perfect God has molded her. But if I had to use words for the sake of this paragraph, then I will say that nothing and no one can compare. Wow! How much do I love her? Well, as she would say....
Super Mega Over!